I'm not committed....

So turns out this dude had other chicks. It all unfolded rather quickly and all on myspace!!! lol.

I left a comment on his status, and the next time I looked it was gone. I figured he deleted it so I started wondering why. I saw a comment from a girl who calls him "daddy" so I checked her page and VIOLA! pictures of them kissing and him calling her his "baby."

I finally confronted him last night/this morning after leaving not so subtle hints all over myspace. lol.

So feast your eyes on these texts....all happening this morning.

Me: FYI in case you couldn't decipher my myspace status message, I know about your girl. Why you felt you couldn't tell me or just be honest is beyond me, but whatever. Its cool.
Him: who r u talking about wow ok whatever
Me: your "baby with the softest lips"
Him: Who just say the name cause I don't know who your talking about
Me: Her name is J**** J**** (i'm omitting her name) at least that is what it says on her myspace
Him: Yeah I mean I know her and I like her but we arent talking I am not serious with anybody but if you don't feel comfortable around me then it is what it is
Him: I wasn't trying to be aggressive with you cause I know what you looking for so yeah I respected you and backed off a lil so its on you we can be friends
Him: but yeah I know her and I like her too ok
Me: So what I was looking for then? Cause backing off was definitely not it
Me: But I mean if you like her and already calling her "baby" then have fun. Its your life
Him: I wanted to back off cause I didn't want to get to involved I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way ok but that wasn't what I wanted to do you a good woman
Me: Oh well, being hurt is natural when you really like someone. And I guess we were on diff wavelengths because I wanted us to become more involved. If I had known that was what you wanted, I would have backed off too.
Him: I wanted to get to know you more so I could decide what I wanted but I really committed to no one.
Me: Well you had the chance to get to know me.
Him: I guess that chance is gone now.

So let me try and get this straight, he didn't want to get too involved but yet this was the guy who on the FIRST date said "even though i'm leaving in Nov, if I find that woman I wanna be with, i'm gonna make it happen. Deployment plans can change. Like i'd be able to take you with me if it was to happen." But now he doesn't want to get too involved.

Yeah and he's not committed to anyone, but don't you have to have some level of commitment to start calling someone "my baby?" I mean I don't go around calling any and every guy "baby." And I KNOW this dude had the kissing picture I saw as his wallpaper for his cell phone. When I was at his house on Tuesday, he was looking at his phone and when he was putting it down I commented to myself "wow that wallpaper looks like 2 people kissing." If only I had trusted my instinct.

What's crazy is i'm feeling really bad. I keep trying to rationalize his thinking and all i keep thinking is to give it another chance. How crazy is that? I'm fighting myself to just say "ok i'll give you another chance." UGH. I don't need someone like him in my life. Especially when I try to think back to our conversations and trying to remember what I said I wanted. All I remember is that we both agreed on what we were looking for in relationships. The only difference is that I wouldn't be having sex unless I really cared for that person. Maybe that is what he meant....I wouldn't have sex, so he went looking for someone who would.

So much for his injury. The pictures and comments were dated 2 DAYS after he had his injury. So the time he told he was too dizzy and too "out of it" to speak to me, was bs. The weekend he ignored my calls and texts was cause he was obviously with her. Grrrrrr men.