Sometimes all it takes is an 'i'm sorry.....'

So tell me why I've been looking at ol' girl's myspace trying to find out what's happening with them. Bitch says one day that she's over the douchebag, and then the next day spouts out the L-word. And now she's 'over him.' Lol.

I guess he wasn't being truthful about being 'friends.' What else is knew anyways? I told myself I wouldn't have any contact with him, but a few days ago I sent him a "hi friend" text. Still no response. Oh well, maybe that is all I needed to just let him go. I deleted anything/everything I had of him....out of sight, out of mind.

This week was Spring Break. Went up with my momma to visit my brother in Tucson. It was nice, but i'm glad to be home. I went up for a day to Scottsdale to visit one of my besties. Her boyfriend is in the minor leagues (part of the SF Giants organization) so he was in AZ for Spring Training. OMG there were HELLA cute ass dudes up there. Lord knows i'm not a fan of baseball, but I could be a fan with those fine looking men. Of course, the ones that I was attracted to the most were the Dominicans, figures! lol. My bestie was saying it was cause it's the 'best of both worlds.' IDK about all of that, but I wouldn't mind ummmm.....brushing up my Spanish with a few of them!! hahahahaa

Other than that, nothing too exciting has happened. I did do something that is completely out of the norm for myself....I apologized to someone. lol. See back in middle school and high school, I treated this girl horribly. The treatment was mutual, but to be fair, I was the one who started it. We were friends until I squashed all of that and did something really stupid in 6th grade. So tonight I apologized for all of it. It was something I had been thinking about for a few days, which isn't like me----I always tried to justify that I was 'in the right' with all the stuff I did and said to/about her. All I figure is that it was God's hand laying this guilt on my heart. So I let her know. What she does with it is all on her now.

I feel really good about it though. Maybe it's cause i'm uber sensitive, but I've always wanted people to apologize to me for the crappy things they've done to me. I guess I need to start with myself and my past actions first.

Other than that, i'm just chillin. I'm not trying to worry about work, love, anything. I'm putting it in God's hands. I heard today at church about 'God's will' being done, and how you gotta stop asking him "Lord please let [such and such] be in your will for me" and instead say "Lord whatever you have for me, I trust in you." So i'm trying to have that mentality. I can't do it on my own, so why not leave it in MUCH MUCH more capable hands?

Peace and Love my amigos.