Love is patient....

So I started seeing a guy, and I really am enjoying it. I met him online, yes I know....kinda crazy. We texted before we met up, but something was telling me to just go out with him. We went out to Applebess and just had a good time. This was on Thursday (not the one that just passed, but the one before). Then on Sunday we just chilled at his house, watched Independence Day and Forrest Gump. We talked, ate some food and kissed a little lol. I was reaaaaally enjoying myself and he seemed to as well.

This past Tuesday he injured himself. He's in the army and was trying to complete a 2 week course, but pulled his grown on the first day. So he's supposedly been out of commission for the past few days. I know I shouldn't be trying to rush it, especially if he's injured but ecverytime I mentioned us trying to hang out, he avoided it. I offered to bring him food, and just be there if he needed someone, and still nothing. Ok, I get it, if you aren't feeling great you don't want people around. I'm the same way. So today I asked him if he wanted to see Alice in Wonderland, which opens next week. Another week is good enough time to heal up. He said yes, but then when I tried to establish a set date...*BAM* again he doesn't respond. Really?

I really do like this guy, and its kinda bothering me that he's so non-responsive especially after being so gung-ho about wanting us to meet up and everything. I know I should just take it slow, and not get my hopes up. Its hard when I rarely date, and when I finally do, I'm enjoying this feeling and then BOOM it seems like its gone.

Who knows, maybe i'll come back with a post that says we are doing really well and this was all just a fluke. I'm kinda hoping for that, but I'll place my trust in God. He knows what is best for me :)


Aside from that, work has been good and I got a new tattoo. I wasn't planning on it, but I went with my cousin to get her nose pierced and decided "hey I have the money, why not?" lol.



There it is. The Scripture isn't my favorite...I don't have a favorite scripture, but it one I really like, especially when it comes to love. I saw the design and decided I HAD to have it (don't ask my why, i'm not usually like that) and just added the flower and the scripture. The imperfection of it makes me <3 it soo much.


That is all I can think of.

Hasta luego amigos :)

When all looks hopeless, it probably is...

Sooooo I seriously haven't posted in this thing in like forever.

I graduated in May of '08 and STILL haven't been able to find that stable "real" job. I'm a substitute teacher right now, which i'm enjoying, but it doesn't give me a reliable schedule or steady income. I work only when there are jobs, and there are days where I don't get called AT ALL. It would be pretty good money if I worked everyday, but so far I haven't. Although I will say, I started in Oct, and I've already made MORE money working as a sub in the what? 2 months i've been working, than I did working at Cold stone and Aero (a combined 1.5 years!). Crazy.

I also haven't been able to find a full-time job yet, although I can be hired. A lot of the principals want teachers who already have experience, which I can understand, but damn how am I suppose to get that experience if no one will hire me. I reeeeeally wanted this job at Richardson Middle school as a Speech Combo teacher. I know it's middle school and i def DID NOT want to teach it, but I soooo want to do speech. Apparently I was not eligible to interview for the job, b/c I am qualified to teach HS speech, not middle school speech. WTF kind of crap is that? Shouldn't it be a good thing if i can teach HS? So they said "well you are qualified to interview for the Alternative position." HELL TO THE NO! For those who don't know, the alternative program is where all the "bad" kids go. They get caught doing something illegal, get in fights, or whatever, they get sent to alternative. Am I qualified to teach alternative? Academically, sure. But there is no way in hell i have the personality to do that. Those kids would have me cryin on the first day.

I've applied to 3/4 elementary schools before the break, and nothing. I keep forgetting to call and inquire, but shit I don't wanna hear that they already interviewed people or whatever. I'm so tired of feeling like a failure, it's ridiculous. Now I know how my brother felt when he got his degree and it took him 2 years to find a job. Damn it. And it's not like I can even look for a job outside the city like he did. Sure, if I don't wanna do teaching I can, but i'm in the stupid alternative certification program which will go on until next october. I already paid the damn money i don't wanna just drop out!

Plus i wanna move out. My mom is getting on my last nerve. I love her and all, but shit i'm 24 effing years old and she still treats me like i'm 14. If I go out with friends, I gotta hear her bitch about how I come home really late (oh wow, 2 am) and how I should be home by midnight. What the fuck ever. I don't do drugs, i'm not having sex and i barely drink, she shouldn't have anything to worry about. I just wanna move out, date and just be able to do whatever I want without her breathing down my neck.